Getting started
Posted by adam on February 19, 2012
Do yo ever get that feeling like your stood outside a house (your house), full to bursting with creativity and inspiration but you’ve left the keys somewhere?
You can see it all through the windows, you’re excited, the anticipation is palpable but you just can’t get in.
Right now I feel like my house of creativity is three stories high, 1 basement and a shed full but whenever I want to open the door I just can’t. I end up tending the garden… enough of this ridiculously extended metaphor.
I’m ready to start making music, lots of it but I keep stopping myself and I’m not sure why. I’m making mixes, doing edits of tracks for Djing, all sorts, but not turning on Logic and writing and creating real things.
I think partly I might be worried that when I start I won’t feel like I have significantly moved on and improved from when I finished The Hollow – and I kind of want that. I want to feel fresh, like I’ve learned lessons and can get over any of those old problems.
And while I don’t start I can still feel in my mind like that is true – I have advanced, I am overcoming all challenges, I am more enlightened about writing and producing.
The reality is that it’s never like that. I still struggle with the same technical inabilities I always have, I flounder at the same decisions, I play a loop over and over a million times without developing it. The first few times…
And there’s the thing. I have to have a couple of aborted missions before I find my flow again, then comes the fun. Then come the ideas and the feeling of having mastered things a fraction more. Then comes the period of fluency, the purple patch, the month of prolific output that often constitutes a good third of the next project.
But you have to open the door and get past all the old coats in the hallway, have a little spring clean and knuckle down.
I haven’t forgotten the key, I’m just not really trying hard enough to find it. Because I hate the feeling of going backwards to go forwards again. But it’s just the reality of creating for me. Time to get on with it.
Hands up if you go through the same thing?
